Sad......

Today I am sad. I haven't done anything except think about the past 7 years of my life and everything I could have done different. I wish I would have listened to me ex's sister about two years into my relationship. Things weren't going great with us and I had talked to her about it and told her I had made my bed and now I had to lay in it. She said no you don't and I so wish I would have listened to her and walked out then. From then on, the relationship went down hill. I was about 3 months pregnant when we had went out to dinner and he flat out told me that he really didn't want to have a baby...he had just told me that so I would stop crying the day after my miscarriage. What do you say? I could feel the lump forming in my throat and the tears starting to form. I was so hurt by what he had just said. Do you just get up and walk out..would that have been the right thing to do then? All I could think about was my unborn child already having the same road paved for her that I had. I didn't want that for her. I wanted so much more for her so I sat there and sucked it up. I was determined to have that family that I had always dreamed of for my little girl. I did everything I could but when you are the only one doing anything, you really start to get tired. I am sad, mad, angry and hurt because I worked so hard for NOTHING. I could have gotten up from that table, poured the glass of water over his head and walked out the door and still came out ahead of where I am now.